Saturday, January 30, 2010

I think the ice makes us all crazy.

I feel like in fairness to OBU I should update on the weather condition. We did get about a half-inch of ice (which is a lot of ice) which was then covered by 5 inches of snow. Steve informed me that OBU cancelled the two days of classes in hopes that students would go home so that if the power went out there would be less people to deal with. Ok. ok. I forgive you. The good news is this: the power is still on and we have had some epic sledding, dancing, eating, movie-ing, etc. and these have been two spectacular overall snow days. However, I still have to pick up the homework but today is only Saturday... so there's TOTALLY time for that... later.

In other news, my heart has been very heavy the last couple of weeks and that heaviness has come to fruition this weekend. Without giving too much away-- because this is the internet and anyone who wants to can read this-- I have come to a certain point where I feel like I have stepped out in faithfulness (although, I did pansy out a little bit so maybe not in the BEST way possible) and now there is nothing left for me to do besides pray. Perhaps this is why no one took my January class. Now at least I am ready for this feeling of wondering why God has asked me to do something when it seems like no one is responding. But now my job is to keep praying and to pray diligently, something I have never been fabulous at doing. So this post is really my commitment to persevere. I've said I'll do something (to God only knows how many people) and now that is what I'll do.

With that said, I feel like when I'm trying to discern something really large I have more trouble discerning little things... like I've reached my quota for the day or something. With that said, I just want you to know that if I do something stupid or say something insensitive in the next week or so, I don't really mean it and please forgive me. I promise you it will haunt me as I go to sleep-- I tend to mull over my "mistakes" until I am told that there's nothing more I can do to make it right. Call me a walking guilt complex but it's always been true.

So this might be a vague and jumbled mess, but it might be a deep look into my soul. At least, I've been painfully aware of my faults these last couple days and I think that those are ok things to be aware of. That was a dangling preposition. See? Yet another imperfection.

Love you all-- and if you want to pray for me, I would appreciate it. :)

May the peace of Christ which transcends understanding guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Amen.

-Veronica

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Here's what I know:

It was approximately 55 degrees yesterday when the entire city of Shawnee raided walmart and OBU decided to cancel classes for both today and tomorrow. Listen people, it's some ice, it's not the apocalypse. Ok, so I haven't been outside yet, but I do think that this has all been a little ridiculous. Frankly, I'm mostly upset that my schedule for all of my classes is going to be messed up. Whatever. I'm going to spend my free time trying to get ahead in my classes, spending time with my sweet roommates and sleeping. Sounds delightful.

To all in OBU-world-- Happy Thursday/Saturday.

To everyone else-- Stay warm and don't get yourself killed on the ice. 'ight?

Love, Vern.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Can't sleep. Random thoughts.

I haven't been doing too much lately. So I've been thinking a lot. Here's some random ones, some life changing, some cynical, some nothing. But that's about normal, I think.

  • Season 3 of 30 Rock is phenomenally funny. Oh my goodness.
  • My three favorite things are Jesus, books, and TV on dvd-- in that order.
  • I'm about halfway through The Time Traveler's Wife because it was on sale a Wal*Mart. It's pretty much just a jazzed up romance. Not great but definitely not bad. I don't know that I would recommend it-- but if you want to I wouldn't tell you no.
  • Also saw Avatar tonight in IMAX 3D-- no less. I thought the 3D didn't actually add that much, but maybe I was just hoping things would jump out at me. Also, I thought the movie was incredibly made but poorly written. Well, mediocre-ly written. I'm ok with people putting their politics into movies, but it's kind of annoying when you don't have anything better to say than, "UH, America pretty much sucks." Because, if you don't have a better solution, then it's better not to say anything at all. BUT, if you haven't seen it, you have GOT to. Because the world that it's set in is freaking awesome. It's worth it just to see the creativity that went into those 300 million dollar graphics which are really quite snazzy.
  • I've seriously considered getting married in a library before. Before you mock me, you have to see the Kansas City Public Library. It's beautiful.
  • I am not ready for school.
  • I have not yet even begun to review Greek! BAH!
  • TPX weekend is pretty much planned in my head-- I just need the vision to be a little bit clearer so I can put it on paper. But it's going to be good and God is doing incredible things.
  • Perhaps prayer is the best response to frustrations. (Oh wait, this is a definite.)
  • I really like spending time with my family.
  • I will miss my sister more than anything when I leave KC.
  • I want to get the board games Things and Quelf.
  • I am broke as a joke.
  • I have said "I" a lot in this post. That's... icky.
  • Parties get less fun when you get stuck talking to people you don't know about things you don't care about. :)
  • Don't tell anyone, but I think Ke$ha is my new favorite guilty pleasure. AGGG-- it's just so CATCHY.
That pretty much covers it.

T-6 days and counting. ish.

-V

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

I promised to be nice.

So, here is my post about how awesome something is.

2009-- my year in review.

As I thought about this year, I realized that the God that I serve is really freaking good. 2009 has been a year of such huge growth in my life that I can't help but just get excited when I think about it. For real, I would say this has been the best year of my life. Highlights?

-Prayer fast- 70 days, just me and Jesus, rocking my world and changing my heart.
-Chapel Crew Co-Chair- the good, the bad, and the ugly all turns into God using a group of people committed to seeking his heart for their community. God taught me so much about faithfulness, my unbelief, and His goodness.
-Overseas- best. summer. ever. Learned so much about grace. God really revamped my entire notion of what it is to follow Him.
-Camp- watching the kids I have loved for so long really step up to the plate and get it. Not to mention dancing to MGMT with my brother.
-Just general growing up and learning. God has stretched me a lot overall. Also, I turned 20 this year, moved out of dorms and into an apartment. My friends collectively grew up and we all got to a point where we can just do life together. We can talk about important things and stupid thing and it's just... good.

So there's something for almost every color of the rainbow. I pray that 2010 continues the huge leaps in my walk that 2009 brought. Also, 2010 marks that I have been a Christian here for 10 years-- which is nuts. I've seen so many awesome things and learned so much about what it means to be a simple follower hungry for the Kingdom of God. I know I still have so far to go.

There you have it. Generally, life is awesome, because God is good [All the time!] and all the time [God is good!]. At least, I think that's how that goes.

To Him who can do far more abundantly than all we can ask or imagine-- to His name be glory in the Church and in Christ Jesus, forever and ever, amen!

Love.

Thursday, January 07, 2010

Blerg!

Well kids, I am about 97.8% positive that not a single soul reads this anymore. And although that was never the point, it does really bring a couple things to my attention. 1) I think I've had a falling out with the person who was my most faithful reader (albeit a terrifically silent one) and 2) I'm am tempted to be 10x as offensive when I think no one is listening (reading-- whatever.) So, since the exceptions would be possibly Disch because I read and comment on her blog, the same with the Jacksons, and there was that time that Adam totally shocked me by telling me he read my other blog, to you I say, "Hello, I'm really quite fond of all of you-- and if you don't want to ingest any cynicism today, I will be very understanding if you stop reading now. It's ok."

But there are some things that have been on my mind.

I have been listening to the local Christian-talk radio station. Why? Partly because I keep forgetting to put my ipod back into my purse and thus cannot listen to it in the car, partly because I just found out that this station exists (92.5), partly because I get some sick pleasure out of disagreeing with people, and partly because I am genuinely concerned with knowing a) the general state of thought for the visible church, b) how others see us, and c) if there is anyone out there with something good to say. This is a great exercise in my ability to find flaws in the biblical interpretation of others-- which is probably a skill not worth developing-- and an excuse for me to give my diagnosis on the problems of the contemporary american church-- a practice destined (pre-destined if you will) to end in pride. But with those things said, I think I have had some good thoughts and I wanted to write them down. And since there is definitely a max of 4 people reading this, I say, "What the heck. Let's do it."

Sidenote: my tendency to create lists is exaggerated as the night continues and I have not been outside all day due to inclement weather. This promises to be a bit of a bumpy ride. For that, I apologize.

I think at some point, possibly in a Relevant email, I read an article telling the church that we needed to stop our habit of creating a Christian ghetto. And here I am signing my allegiance under this pledge wherever it is spoken. Here's the deal, Christians: we don't need more places where just Christians hang out-- that is what church is for. That is what bible studies are for. That is what Oklahoma Baptist University is for. We are creating our own sub-culture that has less and less to do with the world around us and we are becoming less and less recognizable as people. I hear you already, but Veronica, we are to be strangers and aliens in this world! And yes, that is solid biblical advice. But, no one wants to be like you when you are crazy and your kids can't watch normal movies. This is what I'm really trying to say.

We don't need Christian work out places. Go work out at a normal work out place. We don't need Christian punk-rock venues. Open up a regular punk rock venue. We don't need Christian coffee shops. Buy fair trade coffee at a regular coffee shop. Because if we send our kids to Christian schools and shop at Christian t-shirt stores and catalogs and only support Christian grocery stores then when do you ever expect us to interact with the rest of the world who we are supposed to be impacting? We are supposed to be salt and light! But instead we are removing ourselves from the world that we claim to mourn for insisting that they will probably drag us down.

Here's the deal, people. Jesus hung out with all the people that the church people hated. And if we are going to pick to follow one person's life style, I vote that we pick Jesus-- who did after all say, "Follow me." And if we are claiming to follow him, I believe that comes with the commandment to walk as he walked. Jesus hung out with the sinners and tax collectors and didn't become like them. Being strangers and aliens in the world does not mean disappearing-- in fact, it implies that you must necessarily be IN the world. So instead of running from the world, engage it and become a person who can love on people in all parts of life instead of escaping to the easier realm of the Christian ghetto.

I hope that made some sense.

In another blog I might suggest that people rethink the immediate need for someone who is a protestant to automatically be a conservative. I would argue that there is more to the issue of the sanctity of life than just getting people born. I would argue that perhaps we ought to take a deep look at God's heart for justice. And maybe that we open our eyes to see that robbing an entire group of people of rights because, "They're wrong, God says so." is probably not the best way to love them.

But you know what, anyone who started reading this is definitely not anymore and this is far to long and ranty anyway. BUT, perhaps someday I will be respected enough as a scholar to actually make a difference in the way people think. Until then I will speak at d-nows, write this blog, and if I get the guts call in to one of these fabulous shows I've been listening to.

Enough for now.

In other news, this break I think I have become a full-fledged feminist. So you can add that to the list of things that majority-right-wing Christians will dislike about me. The list is growing larger every day. I'll probably just put it on my fridge. :)

Also, I should mention-- the blog title comes from 30 Rock, of which the snow and Christmas presents have demanded I watch gratuitous amounts. It's wonderful.

Good night blogging community. I hope you are staying warm. The next time I write something I promise it will be about how awesome something is.

love.